not so uplifting.....

So blogs are suppose to be a place where you can vent, express, or just plain write about anything and everything right?!? So I am writing mainly for myself, but also for others if they care to listen. I don't think anyone really looks at my blog too often anyways so this is safe:) So here goes: I am so very discouraged at this moment with myself. I was going along so well back in July when I was losing weight, feeling great and was able to run a 5k. Now I sit here having put on 15-20(I haven't weighed myself in a week) of the hard pds I lost and continue to feel so defeated I cannot seem to get back on track. It is frustrating to no end to continue on like this. The worst part is is that when I go to see friends or family that haven't seen me in awhile I feel like I don't want to go because of this suddon weight gain. It makes me feel trapped and mad at myself for letting myself slip back into my old habits when I was doing so great! I was so determined to be on the cover of people 1/2 their size, but I guess I didn't want it bad enough! Even after so many of you gave me great encouragement and pushed me along I still failed. So that's that......I just needed to vent, I know that I need to get over being mad and just get back on track and just say ENOUGH! Hopefully that will come sooner than later.