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Monday, November 9, 2009

not so uplifting.....

So blogs are suppose to be a place where you can vent, express, or just plain write about anything and everything right?!? So I am writing mainly for myself, but also for others if they care to listen. I don't think anyone really looks at my blog too often anyways so this is safe:) So here goes: I am so very discouraged at this moment with myself. I was going along so well back in July when I was losing weight, feeling great and was able to run a 5k. Now I sit here having put on 15-20(I haven't weighed myself in a week) of the hard pds I lost and continue to feel so defeated I cannot seem to get back on track. It is frustrating to no end to continue on like this. The worst part is is that when I go to see friends or family that haven't seen me in awhile I feel like I don't want to go because of this suddon weight gain. It makes me feel trapped and mad at myself for letting myself slip back into my old habits when I was doing so great! I was so determined to be on the cover of people 1/2 their size, but I guess I didn't want it bad enough! Even after so many of you gave me great encouragement and pushed me along I still failed. So that's that......I just needed to vent, I know that I need to get over being mad and just get back on track and just say ENOUGH! Hopefully that will come sooner than later.

Monday, November 2, 2009


This year Alyssa was the nerdiest nerd, Meckenzie a devilish devil, Weston was big bad Megatron, Olivia was the prettiest tinkerbell, and Landon the cutest spidey! We had alot of fun carving pumpkins going trick-or-treating with the kids! Jason stayed back for half of it passing out candy and he said he saw 100+ trick or treaters! We ran out of candy and had to go buy more! Anyway we can't believe that we have lived here for over a year! We love it so far and have made some wonderful friends!